26 January 2016

I'm having a hard time finding a balance right now. This semester brings my hardest classes yet in graduate school and for some reason the weight of two more years to go is pushing down heavily on my shoulders. It's one of those times when I'm feeling like I won't be good enough or that two more years of such high stress levels is going to do me in. 

It's odd. I have so many things going for me with such incredible friends, I'm as busy as ever, and I feel like I'm a role model at school for some people. Logically I recognize all of these things.

Perhaps it is the blizzard. I guess that's actually quite likely. Noah and I were stuck inside for over 3 1/2 days without leaving and have now been inside for another 24 hours. On top of that I have two exams this week and I feel like my brain can't take any more studying right now. Then there's Rush coming up in two weeks and there is a lot of pressure on my chapter to get enough pledges to maintain our status. So, it makes sense that I'm feeling a little overwhelmed. I'll push through as always, but I'm definitely ready to move past this stage of constant stress and studying. 

Life Lately

19 January 2016

You know that exhaustion and emotional high you feel after working on something for a long time? That feeling was my entire weekend! I was lucky and got to see some of my best friends every single day this weekend and that is an incredible feeling. My friend Mary and I had been working on this competition since the beginning of December and, finally, on Friday night all that hard work came to fruition and it was a BLAST. Everyone loved it. Of course, I thought the event would be fun and all or I wouldn't have committed my time to it, but the response has actually been overwhelming (from judges, participants, audience, and even incoming students. 

While nothing should be done for accolades or thanks, I will say that the sentiments of everyone after the show were a wonderful surprise. Mary brought this idea to our chapter and as social chair I was the lucky chosen one to help her with it. And I cannot express how amazing my Brothers are that with our size we pulled off one of the best events of the year for the event's first time off the ground. In just about every way KE reminds me of Circle K that I was a part of at JMU, except if anything we may be a tad goofier. And that is a great feeling.

Phone Dump

09 January 2016

This week I caught up with a lot of friends, played games, started back at school, learned how to give immunizations and vaccines, worked on Mr. Pharmacy, ran Odin around the lake, and read to a third grade class. It was quite busy! And it shows no signs of stopping until summer. I'm really happy to see all my friends again!

My Faves: January Edition

06 January 2016

In January 2016, these are my favorites.

SongOldie but goodie.... Gone, Gone, Gone

Class: I'm just starting now, so I'm unsure.... I did just stick a friend with THREE needles though and got three shots in return. I didn't flinch or feel anxious about getting shots and they were her first ever. That is NUTS.

Meal: Roasted brussel sprouts, carrots, and broccoli plus any other side (bread or baked potato for example)ss

Show: Jessica Jones

Book: Why Not Me? by Mindy Kaling

Quote: "It's a strange thing, how you can love somebody, how you can be all eaten up inside with needing them - and they simply don't need you. That's all there is to it, and neither of you can do anything about it. and they'll be the same way with someone else, and someone else will be the same way about you and it goes on and on - this desperate need - and only once in a rare million do the same two people need each other."  -Madeleine L'Engle  

Instagram Account@aspenthemountainpup

Let the Games Begin

04 January 2016

Tomorrow I will be going through the certification process for giving immunizations. Cross your fingers for me that it will go well and I won't pass out giving any shots. Trying really hard to get over my needle phobia. 

In other news, I'm on day eight of tracking my calories and I'm already down four pounds. I know that rate won't keep up for this entire journey (I wish!), but it's nice to see it dropping each day because it makes keeping my count at 1350 worth it. 

Classes start on Thursday and I'm both excited and terrified. I know I can do it, but I also know it will be the hardest class I ever take. So... here's to the next year and a half filled with icare. 


02 January 2016


Near the end of the year and the beginning of the next I always start evaluating my life and what I would like to see more of. Do I believe January 1st is an arbitrary date? Yes, perhaps. Do I think it matters? No. I think it's good to examine yourself and your life goals deeply and often. January 1st marks a clean slate for many people; the previous year doesn't disappear but something about a clean planner or calendar just denotes freedom. 

As is typical I have created some resolutions for myself. Only one is particularly concrete right now so the others I'll work on to make them a little more "measurable". There are three in total: get fit, find a creative outlet, and become disciplined. 

Getting fit is a very long-term goal for me. It started before the New Year with a revamped focus on MyFitnessPal. My goal is to lose twenty pounds by summer with a rate of one pound per week. So the initial stages will focus on diet. I plan to reevaluate every week and determine how to best start adding in a workout routine. Based on my past experiences when I try to focus on my eating habits and exercise it becomes overwhelming. So for now I'm giving myself a slow start in order to focus solely on food. Then as the weeks start moving I'll add in more fitness to gain muscle. 

Finding a creative outlet is a little more of a fluid goal for me. I'd like to try new things while still taking some time to keep up with blogging and photography. My sister and I did some paintings with wine over winter break and I'm watching some hand-lettering tutorials. It's been a lot of fun! 

Lastly, discipline will be a challenge. This goal is less of an action than it is a lifestyle. I don't want to procrastinate and I don't want to feel stress because of work hanging over my head. As a student (and in pretty much every other aspect of my life) when work gets thrown at me I tend to get that drowning feeling. Even when it's not supposed to be a lot of pressure. I've gotten better about that in a lot of ways. This semester I'd really like to tackle it head on. This has been continually improving with me and I know I'm actually probably better at it than a lot of people or graduate school would be impossible, but I want to be downright GOOD at it. So, I'll check back with you soon when I have ways to measure this progress.

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