I find my head so full of thoughts that I can barely form an idea of how I'd let to get them out on here. Each thought is crowding the next, fighting its way to the forefront of my mind. The problem with not writing regularly is that by the time I come back to it I'm overflowing with a need to get so many different thoughts and experiences down on paper. Perhaps it's time for another round up where I can lay it all out succinctly and slowly start sifting through it?
- Traveled to Des Moines
- Feeling an internal crisis about my future
- Enjoying friends
- Missing friends
- Juggling academics so well I could teach a circus act
- Felt one night as a miserable failure
- Another night was very much a success
- Joined a writing workshop
- Starting to make a mean espresso
- Feeling absent
When I look back over that list I can understand why it's so challenging to figure out where to start. A lot has been happening. I miss my sounding board for my thoughts and ideas. School has become such a race and focus (5th gear, hah!) that I've barely been able to stand still for long enough to actually think. It's my last didactic semester and, finally, I think I'm okay with that. I'm ready to take some time for me, my family and friends, and hobbies again. Not that I expect it to suddenly be easy. I am and always will be someone who works for everything, but I'm hoping to find a little better balance in my fourth year before residency (hopefully!) starts.
For now I'll leave it at this and plan to come back, to share and to think.